Kick Push by Jay McLean

Author:Jay McLean [McLean, Jay]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 0101-01-01T00:00:00+00:00

19

-Becca-

“Wow.” I clutch the covers to my chest and try to catch my breath.

“Sorry,” he murmurs kissing my shoulder. I face him just as he smiles against my skin.

Turning to my side, I run my finger across his forehead to move the hair caught in the sweat across his brow. “Why are you sorry?”

“About the first time.”

A giggle bubbles out of me. “You made up for it the second and third.”

“Yeah?” he asks, his cheeks darkening with his blush. “I hope so.”

“You did. Trust me.”

He moans from deep in his throat and places his hand on my waist, drawing me closer to him until our bare chests meet. His mouth connects with my neck and moves down to my collarbone. “This is going to sound so weird,” he mumbles, lifting his gaze a little. “I really wish I had people around to show you off to.”

“Like a prize?”

He nods through a laugh and holds me tighter. “Exactly like a prize.”

“What would you say?”

“I don’t know.” He moves back slightly and rests his head on my pillow. “I’d probably just shout that this really hot girl let me have sex with her.”

I shake my head. “You’re such a dork.”

“I’m kidding.” He rolls over onto his back and holds his arm out, indicating for me to rest my head on it—which I do. “You know there’s never been a time since my parents disowned me that I’d ever wished it were different. I never wanted them to change their minds or to come knocking on my door begging for forgiveness. But right now, I wish it were different.”

I lace my fingers with his and kiss his hand. “Why?”

“Because I’d want them to meet you. I’d want them to know that even though I’ve made mistakes in the past, that I’m still loveable. That if you can find a way to care about me—then they should be able to, too.” His voice cracks and after clearing his throat he adds, “It’s not just that, though. I think they’d really like you, Becca.”

“Yeah?” I ask, unable to control my smile. “You don’t talk about them often.”

“I don’t really have anything to say.”

“But you have to be mad at them, or at least like—”

“I was,” he admits. “I used to be really angry and bitter and when that faded, I was just confused. It’s not like I came from a bad family. They were both active in my life. They supported my skating, encouraged it even. I don’t know… it’s like out of all the things I could do to fuck up; getting a girl pregnant was where they drew the line. The point of no return, you know? Yeah, they went to church and it was against their beliefs, but really? To not even try? It doesn’t make sense. And it’s not like they sat down and tried to talk to me about it, they just shut me out completely. The worst part is I still see her—my mom. I see her around town and at the store or whatever and she looks at me like I’m some kind of disease.

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